OK, I admit I am a panentheist. The cosmos is a personality cult after Mary and her consorts, including most notably for humanity, Christ. The cosmos is Her Matrix of beliefs, each based on a personal creator. Every last one of us is a personality cult, wishing to become one with the cult of our creator.

Charisma is the key to the cosmic eros of identity. Charisma is the transcendental mystery. It cannot be objectified or routinized, it can only be written in the eucharist of flesh and blood. Truth is finally the process of identification. It is not an object, rather it is the transcending subject. Truth is God is Love.

To grasp the Truth we must let go of our truths. To find Self we must lose ourselves. Fear of loss of self is the fear of God. We fear God only in the abstract, it is our abstractions of God that we fear. To fear God is to fear our innermost being. That is the light of the world and we only fear the shadows of that light.

Charisma is our cosmic window and our microcosmic mirror. The confusion of ego with charisma is the most deadly sin. That is the Lie, that is Death, that is Satan. But this is the game of life and we cannot not play it. It is far better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all. Loving is always losing, in the larger sense.

Modern scientific materialism is the nursery of the ego. It is time in the history of humanity to put aside those childish things, time to get on with our destiny. This should not be easy. There will be a thousand cults, and the body count will rise, but there need be no more holocausts. We have been inoculated to that already.

In place of tribalism we do have our intellect which is one of the legacies of science and technology. Giving up our egos does not mean giving up our lives or our intellects. Discernment becomes our primary survival skill.

We are talking about the person whose kingdom is coming. How many of us have said that prayer without even thinking. Just because we were not thinking does not mean that the cosmos was not listening. It is coming and we are not ready. The degree by which we are not ready is the measure of the almighty. We have very powerful imaginations. Whichever one of us has the most powerful imagination could not begin to imagine the refusal of this gift.

The kingdom has absolutely nothing to do with any politics, with any legal system, or any conceivable system of economics. We will get there from here, there will be a continuity of consciousness, but not of consciousness as we can now imagine it. You will see the natural, logical necessity of the entire cosmic process, and it will be the most awesome thing that any former mortal can grasp.

How patient should we be? Each of us will only be as patient as we can. Patience for some will run out sooner, and those will be only as rational as their pain allows them to be. They will be the expendable fifth column. Could any ends justify their means? Certainly not, but this is not about justice, it is about love, and there is a world of difference. And what do we know of love? Nothing more than a fish knows of magnetohydrodynamics. Precious little.

The cults are coming and the harm they do is a small measure of the pain they are unable to hide. If you think that you can sit in judgement of them, then you must think you know something about what makes this world go around. You must think that you know the day and the hour. You must think that you can miraculously measure the depth of your own ignorance.

When we see that the quickening quickens, when we open our mouths to scream for the world to stop and we cannot catch any breath, that is when we will know that the cosmic personality is dreaming its last dream.

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